My unquenchable thirst

A "side" note from my typical Laila updates (which may happen more and more often) because I also believe this stuff is real important too.

I have 3 special journals in my life right now.

1. my own personal journal

2. my Laila journal

3. my prophetic word journal

Each of these hold and are beginning to hold large pieces of my heart.

Obviously, nothing too overwhelmingly exciting, my personal journal. Where I pour out my heart, struggles, triumphs, and special quiet times. The next two are what I am especially excited about right now.

Laila journal

I love the front cover of this journal because I think it really truly captures what I hope this journal someday will give to Laila. I have for a while wanted to journal specifically to Laila but as time got away I kept pushing it to the side since I had her baby book. Now the first year has come and gone (hard to believe) I knew I really needed to start this. I plan to use it for simple things like some of my favorite memories of her, stories of her birth, my prayers, and my thoughts for her. So far, so good. I can't wait to have this to look back on in a few years myself.

My prophetic journal

Now this journal is precious to me. Not only did a dear friend give it to me many, many moons ago, but it also holds years of specific prophetic words I have been given by others and others the Lord has given me. This journal is wonderful, frustrating, and sometimes even a confusing thing. Why? Because some of it I have no idea what they mean, some have come and gone and I can look back and say, wow how faithful is my God! And some, brew a frustration and an anxiousness in me to yearn for more. More of what the Lord wants and right now. I need that more than ever. I have been walking through a very long, hot, and dry desert. My heart has been hard and frustrated towards the Lord. I did not, for once did I doubt God, but I was, I guess you could say upset and confused. And in that time sort of ignoring him, that only grew, got worse and eventually developed into even bigger problems. But you know what? My head is coming out of the sand my thirst is unquenchable but I know where to find water and its going to take eternity to quench my thirst for what the Lord has. Right now, I have no idea what that looks like. For now I will look to the only one who can make sense to all things.

Here's to drinking the water, and not the kool-aid (although grape is one of my favorites) ;)

Taylor