I had lost my password

I lost and forgot my password how to long onto this little thing. but I have something I want to share. I wrote this on my myspace and it's just my heart right now.

Ok, so I've been learning a lot in life lately. Patience, true love, and surrender. The really crazy silly thing is...they are all tied together.
Honestly, in life me and God have been pretty far apart. Silly how those times are your least satisfied and fruitful and your most lonely. The good thing is when you notice these things, he isn't far. There has been some very trying times in my life lately. Some I will speak of, and some that are better left unsaid. I hit some of the lowest of lows, while still charming and faking my way through life but I'm sick of it. I'd rather be honest and low then come off a completely different person than I actually am. So, this is how it breaks down. I've loved, I lost, I've cried, I've laughed, I've smiled, and I've frowned, I've been raging mad, and I've been the happiest person you've ever met. I have felt all the same feelings as everyone else. I've been temped in the same ways, and fell to some of the same temptations. Nothing that will forever harm me, but something I will forever and continue to learn from. I want you all to know I am human. Not a super human. I am tired of living life trying to please everyone else. I am me and this isn't going to change. This isn't a note of rebellion, but an explanation of who I really am. I am a simple girl who is really falling back in love with Jesus. learning to love the real simple things in life. I am finally killing my own spiders. I am learning to be more open minded and loving of everyone. I am outgoing. I love to read. I like to decorate. I like candy. I love to just drive and blast the music. I love iced caramel macchiatos. I am honest. I am scared. My heart hurts. I love diet coke. I like to ice skate. I am terrified of being alone. I like my alone time though. My passion is people and kids. I don't like to do things when they are forced on me. I make a lot of lists. I really don't like kitten heeled flip flop shoes. I love fashion.
Yet all these things I am or love or hate I have had to learn to surrender everything. Every aspect of who I am and well its real hard. I don't like it most days, but through this surrender has come closer and vulnerability.
During this time in life I have been mad and upset. I am supposed to be in Bend by now, but because of many different circumstances and issues I'm not. This is REAL hard for me. I love home. It is where I feel alive, love, and I feel so close to Jesus. Silly to say cause he is always really close, but there is something there. Patience is hard, but in the end the patience will pay off.
God is love, and he loves each of us for our silly little quirks and even rejoices with us when we finally can kill our own spiders. :) Pray hard. Smile lots. Listen intently. Wait patiently. Love openly. Surrender everything. It'll change your life. I promise.
Much Love
Taylor